10-13-08
Sometimes i wish my life was different... more easy, like things actually going smoothly for a once, and how i imagine them being.
I frequently worry if i will have a happier future...
i want love, friendship, and good relationships as much as anyone.
it's like i crave them, need them to stay normal
i love listening to songs about life because somehow it gives me peace
i'm listening to 93.3 because it reminds me of moises...
i can almost imagine him listening to the same songs.
He told me before, that he doesn't like his parents
He wants to go to college out of state to get away from them.
i would be sad if he moved far away.
Sister Sturgell said this to me,
"You know he could be in your life, but what if he was out of it".
it makes me sad that if i never moved here i would have never met him, or anyone here
are there more people out there i should meet?
i get jealous of kayla scott because she knows so much about him, hangs out with him all the time, and has known him for a long time.
93.3 has a lot of commercials....
i think im going to change it.
LOL
10-16-08
i really don't want to go to school tomorrow!
i hate it now since i can't even look forward to seeing moi
now seeing him just makes me depressed.
and its going to be worse when he graduates!
Halloween season is hereeee
my favorite holiday
even more than Christmas and my birthday!
10-20-08
I just found out that Scott (my twin sister's dad)'s mom just died.
i have to say that i honestly loved her, like MY grandma
She was always around when i was younger, growing up with my mom and Scott in Sandy.
Before i moved to colorado with my dad, she lived with us because she had just started suffering from Alzheimer's disease. This previous summer when i went to Utah and visited the twins at their family reunion, it was the last time i saw her. She was so tiny sitting there in her wheelchair. When I went over to her and gave her a hug, she was shaking, but she looked up at me, kissed my hand, and said, "I will always love you".
I don't honestly know if she remembered me (maybe she did, i dunno if she went around lovin' random strangers), but i hope she did remember me.
Hopefully she loves God and someday i am going to try and do a baptism for the dead for her. My grandma Hatch went to the funeral and she said that she already sent me the obituary and funeral packet. I love my grandma so much. I have know idea what i'd do if i lost her. I can only prepare myself for that day because, my grandparents won't live forever! All of my grandparents hold a special place in my heart.
Sometimes i wish my life was different... more easy, like things actually going smoothly for a once, and how i imagine them being.
I frequently worry if i will have a happier future...
i want love, friendship, and good relationships as much as anyone.
it's like i crave them, need them to stay normal
i love listening to songs about life because somehow it gives me peace
i'm listening to 93.3 because it reminds me of moises...
i can almost imagine him listening to the same songs.
He told me before, that he doesn't like his parents
He wants to go to college out of state to get away from them.
i would be sad if he moved far away.
Sister Sturgell said this to me,
"You know he could be in your life, but what if he was out of it".
it makes me sad that if i never moved here i would have never met him, or anyone here
are there more people out there i should meet?
i get jealous of kayla scott because she knows so much about him, hangs out with him all the time, and has known him for a long time.
93.3 has a lot of commercials....
i think im going to change it.
LOL
10-16-08
i really don't want to go to school tomorrow!
i hate it now since i can't even look forward to seeing moi
now seeing him just makes me depressed.
and its going to be worse when he graduates!
Halloween season is hereeee
my favorite holiday
even more than Christmas and my birthday!
10-20-08
I just found out that Scott (my twin sister's dad)'s mom just died.
i have to say that i honestly loved her, like MY grandma
She was always around when i was younger, growing up with my mom and Scott in Sandy.
Before i moved to colorado with my dad, she lived with us because she had just started suffering from Alzheimer's disease. This previous summer when i went to Utah and visited the twins at their family reunion, it was the last time i saw her. She was so tiny sitting there in her wheelchair. When I went over to her and gave her a hug, she was shaking, but she looked up at me, kissed my hand, and said, "I will always love you".
I don't honestly know if she remembered me (maybe she did, i dunno if she went around lovin' random strangers), but i hope she did remember me.
Hopefully she loves God and someday i am going to try and do a baptism for the dead for her. My grandma Hatch went to the funeral and she said that she already sent me the obituary and funeral packet. I love my grandma so much. I have know idea what i'd do if i lost her. I can only prepare myself for that day because, my grandparents won't live forever! All of my grandparents hold a special place in my heart.
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