Caring for what should not be cared

I've come across a startling realization.
I put more pain into the words of my choice to not go to a school dance
than my post about Dolphin Slaughter.

A friend of mine helped me realize that
High School doesn't matter.
The people who might hurt me now
won'tmatter
when i'm grown up.

Isn't this Blog to help me grow and transition from the 17-year old that I am now to the adult I will be in 280 days?
http://the-birds-and-the-bows.blogspot.com/2010/07/flying-in-with-birds-and-bows_07.html
&I'm babbling about
Homecoming Week.

Homecoming won't bring me Joy
like I will feel throughout my life.

It won't make me a better person or a great mother.
It won't make me a good friend.

This is an awakening.
I don't need traditional high school experiences to make me the person I want to be.
It doesn't make me a better sister or daughter
by showing school spirit.

If my life isn't as good as i think other people's lives are
then I'm wrong.
I'm not dead. There's still Hope
And a Hopeful Life is a Good Life.

Goodbye High School's Hurt Feelings and What-If's.
Hello Beautiful Sunrise
Hello Opportunity and Grace